I’ve been thinking a lot about the concept of momentum lately.
Being the self-motivated, usually-energetic, go-getter type of person I am, momentum is steadily at work in both my professional and personal life. After reflecting on this concept and the events of 2008 recently, I can plainly see momentum carried me through all of last year.
We hit the ground running in 2008 as Kent moved to Germany in early January to begin his new job in Stuttgart. Momentum carried me along during the winter months as I taught on a Quilt Seminars at Sea Cruise to Mexico and afterwards as I prepared for the week long festivities of judging and teaching at the Quilter’s Heritage Celebration Show in Lancaster in late March. After QHC, I immediately flew to Germany and taught at the Prague Patchwork Meetingin April. When I returned to the US, I immediately got busy packing and preparing to move us lock, stock, and barrel to Germany in May. We joined Kent in June and spent the summer unpacking and getting settled here in Sindelfingen.
I worked feverishly putting together a manuscript proposal for my second book in September and taught at the AQS Quilt Show in Des Moines in early October. Two weeks later, I was back in the US for the International Quilt Market in Houston. The month of November was spent catching up, writing articles, finishing projects and gearing up for work on the new book. December was a whirlwind of holiday preparations and a very busy time at work for Kent. Momentum carried us all through — week after week, month after month.
After Christmas, when everything calmed down, we went into hibernation mode for a week. It was lovely.
2009 arrived quietly. At first, it was rather nice. I enjoyed the “down time.” The first week the boys were back in school, I even rallied my creative energies and using my favorite design software, EQ6, I knocked out about 20 fabulous, original quilt designs. I was feeling productive, creative, and well, pretty good about things.
But then, for a variety of large and small, seemingly piddly reasons, I hit a brick wall. It was January 9th. I remember the day. BAM. Just like that, everything came to a screeching halt. I won’t lie to you. The reasons my blog entries have been few and far between for the past several weeks are because I’ve been in a major slump or rut, or because I’m suffering from the designer’s version of writers block. Perhaps it is the January or mid-winter blahs. I do hate dreary, gray weather. Maybe I truly suffer from that sunlight disorder? Who knows. Whatever the reason, I’ve felt aimless, pensive, antsy, irritable. This is so unlike me. I can’t seem to concentrate or focus on the work that needs to be done at hand. And if I’m really honest with you, we have hit some major hurdles recently as a family that have just knocked us down to our knees. We are discouraged.
I know every person on this planet goes through rough patches. No one escapes without enduring trials and tribulations. Many of you out there right now are dealing with your own struggles whether they are because of the terrible economic climate, trials with personal relationships, depression, health issues, or conflicts at work. Let me tell you, I feel your pain. I truly want to empathize with each one of you. It is just no fun when you are facing what seems like insurmountable obstacles. You want to curl up under a quilt and block out the world. Well, at least that’s what I feel like doing.
Normally, I don’t write about such personal, emotional issues on this blog. After all, you stop by to read fun, light-hearted, quilty things; to get ideas or learn something new. I debated a long time before writing this blog entry about whether or not to share the reason for my “absence” lately. And I promise not to bore you any more in the future about the frustrations and issues we’re dealing with right now. Not only is it a real “downer” for anyone reading this blog, but it’s one sure-fire way to ensure you won’t be coming back to read more, and I certainly don’t want to chase anyone away. But I also want to be true and honest to my blogging and cyberspace friends, and it would be dishonest to pretend we’re not going through a rough patch in our lives when everything concerning our future seems so uncertain.
So I promise to post more fun entries, colorful photos, and great ideas for your quilts in the coming weeks. But in the meantime, I hope you will be patient and understanding. Maybe even say a prayer or two for our family. We are strong Christians, and we are praying for God’s guidance and wisdom for our lives. Right now, our future is in His hands. And that certainly is the best place to be.
And little by little, I KNOW that with each small, seemingly insignificant step, the momentum of our lives will spring to life again.